Two Years in Hibernation... Now - I'm Back!

Guilty – the exact word to call me since I have abandoned my blog for almost more than two years. It’s not that anyone is ever interested to read it that I’m pressured to update it, but I think the genuine message of the ‘act’ of leaving my blog untouched for such a long period of time suggests that I have also ‘abandoned’ my love for writing – and comes with it the connection that I have with myself.

To be downright true, I am torn for how many months already if I am still to keep this simple online space or just throw it away and start all over again.

So why have I not blogged anymore? What exactly happened to me that I’ve lost the spark of weaving words and writing with sense? The truth is – I don’t know. Quite frankly, I’m also surprised that it has been two years since I hit the Publish button.

The past years had been too harsh for me. A break-up, financial downfall and drastic career shift left me so paralyzed. Plus, I always had this idea that I have to write impeccably to consider myself worthy of the cause. Clearly, I wasn’t able to get back on my feet and start writing blog posts instantly. And I did, at some point still consider myself a blogger – pfft. What a shame.

Woe to me who haven’t produced anything on the table for months. Woe to me who haven’t developed my schedule to find enough time for writing. Woe to me and my perfectionist but catastrophic irregularities. I don’t know what happened… but I lost it. I lost the touch, the magic, the words, the writing, the scribbles, the love for English.

I lost it.

But oh!

How convenient it is to say that right now I think I was bitten by a bug that I suddenly wanted to write. But what transformed me? What moved me? What sense in the universe has forced me to get my butt up on a chair again and use the keyboards of my laptop?

Maybe, I blame experience.

For soooo many times I really wanted to just ditch my chopstick lady account and breathe life to a new name. It’s not that I don’t like this blog – it’s just that I think I have outgrown it. I started this blog not really because I want to share things, but because I wanted people to notice me and read my works; maybe- I just wanted to move with the ‘flow.’ But gone are those days. Right now, I wanted this blog to be my thoughts immortalized into words. I want it to have a sense of purpose, to really connect with people, to engage my readers and (if not really be a part of their lives) just be a part of their day.

You may say I’m a dreamer… but I’m not the only one. Anawangin, Zambales 

And so here I am, adjusting my sails as the wind has changed its course.

And I’m choosing to retain this blog – maybe change its name someday though – but I’m sticking with it right now. Besides, it is the perfect example of my transition from being just another cookie-cutter to being a blogger with a soul.

So, a different blog? Maybe…. or maybe not.

Back to Blogging and Blogger

Wordpress.com's interface is becoming increasingly unfriendly to users (at least to me) and so now I've decided to go back to the loving arms of my first blogging platform - Blogger. I do hope that this is a really go decision though as most of my posts are in WP!

First and Final WP Blog (Or so I thought)

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Note: C'mon, yet another forgotten blog? This is another of my past blogs that I'm now moving in here. Read my words, I just ate them all up! lol

This is it. Yes, precisely the last and final blog that I swore to myself I will ever make – at least until Worpress lasts.

I’ve created two other blogs in WordPress already, and two more from other sites but they were all shaken into nothing because I’m just so downright “slob-ish” to update any of them.

My first blog was supposed to be a guide about “freelance writing” as this happens to be my work. But I was too busy with my freelance work that I couldn’t even give a second of my time to update the poor little, deserted, spacious site.

Secondly, I created another blog entitled “I love Classic Books” dedicated to my love for – I’ve named it – classic books. I promised to myself that I will update it weekly and that I’ll never let it wither unlike the sad predicament that my previous site embraced. Unfortunately, I am one freakish liar to myself and so again my little I-love-classic-books site turned into where’s-your-classic-book site drama.

But then, let bygones be over. Right now, I am quite positive (fingers crossed) that I will stick to my words and dare live up to my promises that this “My Favorites” BLOG will survive – at least even for a year!

So what’s the catch with this site then? I’m planning to make this a bit of a drop box of all my favorite pieces in the world. Perhaps largely about classic books and what I have on my bedside table, a little about the products I use, and a fair amount of what’s on my mind.

I hope this works – because I really love to blog about things but time is one arrogant master, it’s so frugal to me . . . But it seems like I am on the guilty side of things, actually.

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